Bianca_Rule

Bianca_Rule
Dont Say a Word If u Think U Dont Have The Answer...

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Ever Thine, Ever Mine, Ever Ours...



Love

Love is like a lump of gold,
Hard to get, and hard to hold.
Of all the man I've ever met,
You're the one I can't forget.
I do believe that God above,
Created you for me to love.
He chose you from all the rest,
Because he knew I would love you best.


The Meaning

To love is to share life together
to build special plans just for two
to work side by side
and then smile with pride
as one by one, dreams all come true.

To love is to help and encourage
with smiles and sincere words of praise
to take time to share
to listen and care
in tender, affectionate ways.

To love is to have someone special
one who you can always depend
to be there through the years
sharing laughter and tears
as a partner, a lover, a friend.

To love is to make special memories
of moments you love to recall
of all the good things
that sharing life brings
love is the greatest of all.

I've learned the full meaning
of sharing and caring
and having my dreams all come true;
I've learned the full meaning
of being in love
by being and loving with you.
 

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Saturday, October 30, 2010

I Love Myself.

WhoOt2!

I pledged to myself...
*not to be fool again
* not to be hurt again
* not to feel pain again

Because....
*I can accept what happen between us.
*I realise that everything I do doesnt worth it.
*I have my strength and people who love me more than you do.
*I know I will be happy sooner or later.

And...
*I should forget you TOTALLY
*I should move forward and find happiness
*I already have my own aims. :p Better!

I rthought I will never forget but God have show the way.
Thanks God.

Love,
Baby Bianca.

Monday, October 18, 2010

Tired.

Am so tired....

Can I die?
Can I dissapear myself?
Can I live alone?
Can I be in peace?

Stop please...

Tired...
Tired...
Tired...

Let me alone...I know you don't care.
Don't ask if you don't trust me...
Don't ask if you gonna ask me again and again...
Tired...Hectic...

Love,
Baby Bianca

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Such a jerk BROTHER!

Phewwww!

Its been a rough week for me. 
its been a long week!
Things happens and i kinda cant control it. 
I fought with my own brother(which is now, he is not my brother anymore).
Sucks!

If he thinks I hate him, let it be
If he thinks am not suppose to be like that, like I care?
If he thinks am bad, doesn't it clear enough?
BoOyah~
You dont have any idea how I survive this life, my life all this way!
And I just asks for a very tiny litle help....LIL HELP dude~
You said am not considered on how busy you are?
Oh well, before this I text you but have you reply any of it?
How bout last week? 
I dont talk right?
But now, I totally cant stand it anymore! 
Hey, I dont ask if I dont really need it ok?
You are my brother, who else I can turn too?
Our folk?
Heh, I think they rather ask me for helps than yours?
Why? Why me? Why I always be the first to ask for favors?
I am a student ok! I am not working yet! Oh please lah!!!!
You???? 
Selfish!
Oh I forgot.. You are good guy
Always have God word with you, very good....
But lets talk about responsibility! About realtionship! About helping people!
Totaly out of you! 
Oh.. people will talk. I know am the one who get the bad name because am the spoiled one, am the bad one, am the younger, am the 'not so holy' one!!!

Did they know anything about me? No!
Did they have a brother like you? No!
Did they face the same prob? No!
Did they??? the big NO!

You said I dont like you right?
Oh.. now I did!!!
I am not gonna die or watever its take without you.
You and your life can get lost from my life!
Dont ever call, sms, meet or everything!
I dont have any interest on you at all.
You are not my worries anymore.
So, please... Back Off!

and those middle finger is for 
MY 'LOVELY' BROTHER!

take it!

Love,
Baby Bianca


Friday, October 8, 2010

Blood On My Eyes...

I kinda don't understand every single love stories in my life. Each chapter ended tragically and I am the one who messed up with everything. Is that consider due my own stupidity? Or others?
Back to the past, it's all like question marks flooded on my head... I can't help being insane and disappoint people around me.

Lately, I think am over thinking about someone who is not belong to me... I become the stalker and always want to know everything about that person daily activities. Sound stupid right? But...can't help it. 

I wondered about such things:
1. Who's in his mind right now?
2. Who's text with him everyday, every night?
3. Who's talking to him on phone at night?
4. What's he think about me?
5. What's his feeling about me after all?
6. Who's with him now?
7. ????????? LOTS!

I know am not suppose to ask... to know who, what, where, everything about his life because we are over..
At the end of day.... every day.... every night... I realize how stupid i am...and I pledge to myself before going to sleep, not to care about him, ignore him as hard as i can try and have a good heart for others. But I wake up in the morning, I reached my phone and checked if he send MSG to me... Even when I heard the rumors you are with others girls, my heart sank and there's tears rolled down my cheeks. I pretend to be okay and supportive, so you can see me as a strong girl who can live my own life without you. Believe me...I am so green. Sneaky read you post sometimes make me feel you can forget me easily...and I will said to myself "He don't need me in his life..." How can i go on my life with all this? 

Every time i tried to make it up for both of us, its will end in hurting me and you. Your egos so high, i cant break it down. I have to admit I am not a good girl for you. Even if u insult me, i will never...never mad at you. All i can do is turn off the phone, lay down my bed, close my eyes and silently cry with my hand on my chest. I must be in great pain and suffered...

But... I know, there's must be a way for me. Its not the end of world... Even i tried so hard, even i tried so bad, I know there's no chance for me. Its all my fault because you and my life are different. I have my own reasons for all this, about our relationships. People will not understand except the person who close to me. People will curse me for hurting your heart, people will talk. I don't really mind because they just know the minimum details about me...All that bad words wont hurt me anymore.

And here... I pray to God. Please...let me end all this peacefully without any doubt. Give me strength to accept everything that happened to me.  I am weak and I don't have anyone to turn to anymore... You are the one who will listen, who will stay and be with me no matter in any circumstances. For you, I give all my worries and obstacles to be cure, to be done and to be overcome. I love you God and I believe in Your miracle. And i want to pray for him, lets he find the better woman in his life, who will show his the Light of You. I know there's a woman who always with him. talking to him at night, who successfully persuade him to go to church. I will pray for their happiness God. I know I am not a good one, who always put myself into trouble, who always find the reasons to escape from attending the church. But, You are the great, You are my Father, You love me not matter what i had done. Thank You Lord.  In the name of Jesus Christ, I pray.. Amen.

For all this matter, i will find my ways to continue my life without you...
You are my past
But....
I still love you
I still dream of you
I still thinking of you
I still wants you
Have a good day my love
I wont stop you....
Because am happy for your happiness
'GOODBYE MEMORIES'

Baby Bianca


Sunday, September 26, 2010

WhOot2!

*Headacheof drama in my life
*Still not doing my work...due date just around the corner~ Hek!
*Missing the heat from the club~
*Any new place to eat delicious food?
*I think i need some entertainment since am busy with such things~
*WOo.. still want to go home...
*Eyh... LONGHOUSE sounds good huh? hahaha!
*Can i fly?
*Addict with SIMPLE LIFE~ Weee!
*Kind of sick with some selfish pips lately...especially the one who admit they are sooooo kind but actually bloody NOT!
*Love E!...
*Just going through over some pics just now.. I saw his pics and I miss him... Rest In Pic...Will pray for your happiness.
* Can i be a rock star? Hehehe
*Peek-A-Boo!
*I am fierce~ Aaah! Hehehe~
*Dreams a lot...
*I wanna be  billionaire so freaking bad....

Love,
Baby Bianca